LOST IN TRANSLATION

Counting on the leaves of autumn to fall on a summer’s day  

It is not a childish play

Staring blankly ;-

into the mindless racing thoughts’ highway

tunneling feelings as if I was on a subway

yet it will never be nothing but a short drive away.

From the path of salvation to seek help

How can a bewildered soul travel past self-help ?

Striving and pushing limits to be better

But what exactly defines the word ;-

When everything seems to be aligned as a setter.

A debtor is what I will continuously be

To the eyes of the world that can never set me free

Beaming lessons in life ,learned ;-

And I can always agree

Imminently in debt to a life borrowed from thee.

MAIDEN

Words are spoken yet actions need to be taken

Appreciation would always be the token

Together with a humble trust and love

It will never be forever broken .

What difference does perception and submission make

When your own opinion is at stake?

You take charge of the decisions you make

So never stray from yourself by being fake.

Strength and wisdom is God given,

You need not to be proven

Love thyself before you get even

Friends will hold the fortress

When you can’t bear being beaten.

All is fair in love and war

Or so that is what has been rumored from afar

You’ve taken yourself til this far

Don’t let a pebble halt  you from your journey

And keep you bottled up in a jar.

A fair maiden that you are

Independent in ways that you have become

In  this life you will  raise the bar

Need not let a man suffocate you like a lung filled with tar.

SLUMDOG

I grew up in the slums of a place called MS university

Life is what they call it but mom was looking for epiphany

Back when I was seven and my sister was five

We didn’t know life was tough but we managed to survive.

Mom’s prayers brought us to the land of Malaysia

Didn’t know where it was till I landed here ,the heart of Asia

Nothing beats the feeling like I belonged

Wasn’t feeling alienated cause it was like I was home

I learnt how to live, I learnt how to love

Cultures intertwined from two nations which I’m proud of

No one comprehends the passion I have for this little country

Yet I can still speak to you about it very humbly

Twelve years passed without missing the motherland

I found my love and lived the life in this little wonderland

For fifteen years,  I loved unrequited

No security provided but we stayed as decided.

Mom still teaches and dad just finished learning

I’m not gonna wait for another prince charming

To take us  out of our foreign battles

Cause I won’t let us fall under those  prattles

Life outside is tougher than it looks

But I am not ready to take up  these hooks

For even this place that I’ve loved my whole life

Can tear me up like a steak knife.

This is a constant fight that I can’t bear to lose

For my family or country  I need not choose.

Working hard to be the sole provider

No giving up even when life gets harder.

Surviving

The war to stop you has just begun

No longer will I be in your arms

No longer will it be the death of me

Chains will be broken and I shall be free

I’ll run away from the hands that kill

I’ll run away from the blades of blood that has suffocated me

A call to all those who feel the pain

Seeking refuge to those who understand

Seeking the right from the wrong

I’ll never fall back and run

Fight the walls that hurdles my way

Fight the thousand men you sent to seize me with no remorse.

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It’s actually about human trafficking.

Hehe. I know my words are not that deep. I prefer being raw like this..cuz it’s me. J

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Letting Go

Lights are flashing while I lay in bed,

no warmth inside me

murmuring thoughts drown my mind

the grace of your presence gone

with my heartache pictures burned

The stars that used to shine brightly in my sky

vanished into the vast universe like thin air

never will you come back in my arms

I’ll rise through this   misery

Falling apart I should refrain

to the words that had to succumb

to the memories that will never fade

a plead for happiness I deserve

a prayer of joy you shall receive.

Ahmad Syukri 2

Notes from my heart contain;
A love for you that cannot be restrain,
Yearning for you that eternally remains,
For without you I would be in pain,
Somehow like a year without rain.

I kid you not Ahmad Syukri,
Tis this hands will not set you free,
I am not in love with two or three,
In my heart lives only thee.

When you utter of your passion,
It is definitely my greatest possesion,
You’ve got my heart in your prison,
Guilty as charged and you are the reason.

Body

Bare, naked,nude
as when i undress you
for nobody knows your beauty
at least the way i do.

your supple skin
and that orgasmic touch
sends shivers down my spine
for you are the ghost in me
out to hunt the lust in thee.

each touch,kiss and scent,
skin to skin, hands on my neck,
nothing feels better
the nurture of your being.

They are ashamed to embrace you,
ungrateful of your power,
barely sensing your essence,
hiding silently behind sheets of humanity,
unaffraid of your gift,
while some seek refuge from your curse.

I cut your surface,
pound you bit by bit,
knowing that it will hurt you,
apologies do not suffice,
the waves of agony that i’ve inflicted,
love, i am yours eternally.