Dad

If only you were there

when life seems unfair

If only you understood

all those sorrows I faced

If you would just open up your eyes

Open up your heart and Accept me as I am.

Where did your gentle ouch

and your calming voice go?

I'm not hoping for much

Cause I know i'll just feel low

Thinking of where you had go.

All I'm asking now 

is for you to notice me

And be the one who would accept me if I fail.







*this was written on 20th May 2006,on my dad's birthday*

Christopher

You left me
With a broken heart
and a faithless tomorrow
for you and me

You were the sunshine
The moon of my world
But you gave me
the plague of loving someone
too much in return


*this was written when I was 17 years old,madly in love with a man I barely knew*

Ahmad Syukri

Through my eyes,

I couldn't ask for more

I would give up my soul just to be with you

But yes I know I already have you

A year together and I'm praying for more to come

When hurricanes of anger come my way

you were the wind that blew it all away

When flood of tears drowned my soul

you were my umbrella and did not leave me astray

Though sometimes you fail and fall

Never have I regret having you around my side.

Hurtful as it may be at times

I'd take it all but lead my hands through and through

I thank you for the great year it has been

Though I might whine and whine

yet I know you know how thankful I am

I look up to you for trusting me

For putting your heart and soul bare just for me

Not forgetting for being the air that I breathe

For sharing your life with this petite girl

An ode to my one and only Ahmad Syukri

I will close my eyes and wish some more..

P/S: I love you so effin much!!!

~Melangkah 2010~

Night After Work

Oh ya,life in KL,
begitu gah begitu sibuk
Oh tidak boleh dibandingkan dengan Tokyo pun
Walau apa cara kau lihat dan dari setiap sudut
Kuala Lumpur kota metropolitan yang kian kompleks
Bukan senang nak hidup
Bukan susah nak mati
"apa motif?" itu persoalan kau
tapi yang kau nampak itu
adakah ia sama dengan apa yang aku lihat?

Oh ya,aku bukan asalnya sini
Akan tetapi apa yang aku lihat di kaki lima
apa yang aku perhatikan di kaki lima
semua sama..
toleh kiri orang terbaring tanpa kaki minta sedekah
toleh kanan orang tercangkung terpaksa hulurkan tangan
pandang depan..pemberi celah kelangkang keluar dari hotel
seberang jalan pula..kebanyakannya plastik
materialistik dan berjalan dengan gahnya ke Pavilion

Bukan nak kutuk
bukan nak hina
tapi kenapa mesti begitu?
Aku mengasihani mereka
Tapi aku marah
Marah dengan nasib mereka
bengang kerna sikap mereka
The world will never be fair
So all we can do is live with it..

Un-returned Concern : Mild Case of Emotional Negligence

dalam diam aku keseorangan enggan bercakap mahupun berbicara
dalam hiruk-piruk keadaan aku menyoal kepala dan minda yang makin serabut
call atau text pun susah? Seminit panggilan tak sukar
beberapa patah perkataan tak panjang
aku hanya mahu tahu..
Blog sajalah peneman ku seketika.


It's not that  I'm trying to smother you. At least even if you're busy, please tell me if you're still breathing. If you are alright. You tell me the same thing too. All I ask is for you to return the favor.




Love you always.......

A poem I wrote for Ga on Valentine's

I must confess I'm not good with words
I'm no Shakespeare nor Stephen King
Not even a Mariah or a Norah Jones
Can't even paint your smile like Da Vinci's Mona Lisa
Or sculpt you like Picasso's wonders
But one thing is for sure and I'm certain
Never had it come across before,not like this
Now I know it's real and true
Glad to have you in this lil world I call life
Cheers to our past,present and future
My best friend,confidante,my heartbeat.

Hands

I could have sworn I was in the arms of Edward,
Until I had awaken from that day dream,
flew back to reality with a thousand thoughts,
as I felt those hands while I caressed them gently,
pressing my palms over as I grip it with force,
familiarity came storming through my senses,
as I felt them embrace my body tighter,
it was warmth and love that I felt,
slowly as I sensed the movements and the heartbeats,
and as a smile replaced my blank expression,
I tilted up my head a little and looked up,
A kiss I gladly received,oh it was my lover!