The girl on the floor

The girl on the floor

she wept and wept 

thinking of her secrets kept

The eye on the wall

wonders and ponders

asking where her bright smile went

it can see the sorrow in her eyes

hoping to bring back the joy that she felt

The girl on the floor

lying down staring at the eye on the wall

a smile replaced by tears

scars and cuts became one with her skin

Damaged and torn she is inside

Together with her broken heart

*written on 13th June 2006*

Voices

Why wouldn't you understand
the pain that she walks through
Why won't you try
and listen to her little voice
instead of the devil within.

When are you able to accept her
the way she is
In case your heart desires
in case your mind wonders
she bleeds and cries
she is dying

If only you opened up your eyes
and see the world as she does
You will see she's almost gone
where your eyes won't meet
nor hear the voice that you have undone

Don't wait till it's too late
for everything you do is by your fate.






* 13th June 2006*

Tell me

Can anyone tell me
Can you tell me
What that smile meant?

Can she tell me
can you tell me
Why I feel this pain?

Can you tell me
Yeah,you
When you gave and said those words to me?

Can you help me
Help me understand
help me get through
all these feelings
keep popping in and out of my mind?

Can you tell me everything will be okay
Can you tell me one day
will be together

Or maybe
Can you tell me
Is this the end of the road
For you and me?

I know I want to be near you
With you
Holding you
Would you still feel the same?






*written on 21st of May 2006*

Thoughts

Wind is surfing on your precious hair
Air is whispering the words you want to hear
Staring as the sun begins
To unfold the beauty of the hills
As tears roll down my eyes
Thinking
Of how it all used to be
Remembering
The lovely moments how we'd thought were meant to be
How I wish to listen to your stories again
Of how we were and how we will be
Realizing
All I have now are memories
The wound that would be left unhealed
for he knows
I would not love them
As much as I love you.

*Date written :19th may 2006*

Dad

If only you were there

when life seems unfair

If only you understood

all those sorrows I faced

If you would just open up your eyes

Open up your heart and Accept me as I am.

Where did your gentle ouch

and your calming voice go?

I'm not hoping for much

Cause I know i'll just feel low

Thinking of where you had go.

All I'm asking now 

is for you to notice me

And be the one who would accept me if I fail.







*this was written on 20th May 2006,on my dad's birthday*

Christopher

You left me
With a broken heart
and a faithless tomorrow
for you and me

You were the sunshine
The moon of my world
But you gave me
the plague of loving someone
too much in return


*this was written when I was 17 years old,madly in love with a man I barely knew*